When Life Gives Me A Lemon

Hell, if life gives me a lemon I'm making myself a pitcher of margarita and party all night long! But honestly, it's easier said than done. Everything is easier said than done for that matter. Such is the nature of life eh?

Last week was a hell of an emotional turmoil for me. Employment decision with DC I was driving me crazy. I'm the type of person who prefers to see things in black and white instead of gray. So speculations about if I may or may not get the job is worse than knowing a solid answer "I'm sorry you did not make it through.".

On Saturday morning, I received a sms from the other interviewee saying that he got the offer. I knew immediately at that moment, I didn't get it but at the same time there's one more slot to be filled. I didn't get any calls or emails if I got the job. But that sms was enough to spiral me down into the fringes of depression.

But I didn't get all depressed that day solely because I promised B that we're going to Urbanscapes, KLPAC. No one wants to go anywhere with a depressed friend so I just chucked the feeling aside. We enjoyed Urbanscapes tremendously despite the extreme hot weather and a brief downpour.

After Urbanscapes, we headed back for dinner at a McD around the corner from my place. Sensing that I was worried with my employment and future career, we started to talk about it generally, sharing stories and such. He got to suggesting that I give PR or something along the communication line a try. His arguments were, I like to go for events, comfortable with crowds and getting to know people. Plus, if I can blog, I can write an article to cover events.

I was thinking why not. Maybe I'll freelance to cover events and get myself some media passes at the same time.

But the bigger implication to this discussion was it opened many more unthought-of career paths. All these while I've been thinking I want to do technical job but now I'm not so sure I want to. It's a classic the case of technical (where the money is) vs non technical (less money here). I'm just feeling lost with all these employment concerns.

What do I want to do?

Who do I apply for?

What position do I apply for?

Questions I can't answer still.

On the other hand, I have an interview with a company on Monday. They're offering a position in Thailand! They need someone with engineering background to do management work. The position in Thailand is permanent too but I'll know more when I attend the interview.

Funny thing is, I received this offer from an email sent after I received the SMS from the other interviewee. When one door closes, another open? I'll see what happens with this interview.

You know you love me.
XOXO
Queer Ranter

6 comments:

Darren said...

You know what my lecturer said today? He said do something that will bring you money in the first 5 years, then only switch to something that you love to do.

I know it can be a little unconventional advice coz most would say choose something you would love first...hmm anyway it's still going to be your choice...Good luck

Fable Frog said...

the feeling of uncertainties surely is damn frustrating! Look for more option and opportunity. You can't just wait for that ONE job while wasting your time. Good luck with your job hunting :)

Oh no! Thailand? So far??

Queer Ranter said...

Darren: How very unconventional but I guess it makes sense to a certain extend. If only there's a one method that works for all.

FableFrog: Yea I know. I'll hunt about and see.

William said...

See where things take you. :). It will be interesting.

Jason said...

Go for the Thailand offer!

Queer Ranter said...

William: Yea I know. Come to think of it, I've been surfing the wave of life for quite some time now.

Jason: Hahahha. I'll give my best shot. :)