Oxymoron of 2009

Mamak-ing while sitting under an umbrella waiting for the rain to stop isn't the perfect setting that I'd like to chill with my friends. Not just any rain but those huge downpours sort of rain. It's noisy, cold and annoying. I get annoyed getting wet by rain. I love rain when I'm dry and away from the rain.

But prior to the mistimed horrendous torrential downpour something peculiar came up. Islamic Beer. Yes you read it right, Islamic Beer. Oxymoron of 2009. Islamic (alcohol is "haram") and beer (full of alcohol). So what exactly is Islamic Beer? It's just a malt drink with gas and fruity flavors. It's equivalent of fruity bubbly. The lady said it's 99.9 % alcohol free.

Seriously... The things people come up with...

Just as I thought that would be enough of an oxymoron dose for one night, this popped up. My dear friend (also known as "Muka Ketat" and flashed victim) loves pork even though it's "haram" for him to do so. But he found a way round it this tricky situation. Say "Bismillah" before eating and also say a prayer before slaughtering the pig. Then you'll have "Halal Pork"!

Wouldn't life be boring without these lovely oxymoron to keep us entertained?

You know you love me.
XOXO
Queer Ranter

Sheer Is Important

White is fast becoming my favourite colour! Since the White PSP, White PSP Earphone, White Party and now I got a new white item to add into the list! White white white! I absolutely adore it and yet to have my premier appearance in it.

So what white item is this? Its a white BODS swimming trunk! And see the sides, its got rainbow stripes! Totally awesome! I fell in love with it the first time I saw it in Philosophy but I didn't get it. Thanks to William, who got it for SGD 15!

Freaking cheap!

White with rainbow stripes trunks.

Just look at it.

PRETTY!

ADORABLE!

QUEER!

I can't wait to wear it and get into the pool. It'll definitely be sheer. I wonder how sheer will it be. Opacity of 10% perhaps. Heheheh.

Run kids, RUN! Close your eyes. Don't look at the hawtie with the thinggi showing through the speedo.

-Live Long & Prosper

Ketupat, Mafia & Taboo

Open house number 2, Adrien's place. It's so freaking far away but it was worth it. Lots of yummy food, great company and great time spent with everyone. With the amount of food I've been eating, I think I gained weight...

I guess the highlight of the open house was us playing taboo and mafia. The last time I played taboo was long long time ago. It was hilarious more than anything especially with Paul around. He says the darnest things.

Alex: What's gold and curly?
Paul: Pubic hair!

*there was a little commotion going on with Adrien and Adrien's family members especially the dad

Scott: This one Paul should know. Which organ in the body is redundant?
Paul: The brain!

*sweat...

Alex: This is what Jason does for a living.
Paul: Prostitution!

*gasp...

Yep that's Paul alright. Says the darnest things at the darnest moments.

Then we played mafia. It was my first time playing mafia and I must say I love it lots. The plot, the scheming and the accusations. Accusing people based on pillow vibrations or "I heard some noise going on at this area" is really funny.

I just say, bring them to the stake and burn them! So medieval mentality. Hahahah.

-Live Long & Prosper

Rendangs, Wii & Frangi

Last night was a blast. What at first seemed like a usual open house party ended up becoming a reach-home-at-3-am affair. We were out par-ta-ying of course! Shake your booty booty, its your duty duty.

I honestly thought, with all the zombie obsession that is Sam, we will go to a mansion ala Adam's Family. Secret tunnels, secret rooms and basements full of body parts here and there. Not forgetting the permanent thunder clouds lingering around the highest peak of the mansion to supply energy to whatever experiments he was conducting. The courtyard filled with tombstones of unnamed victims.

Thank goodness its a normal suburban house. We did the usual eating, chatting, laughing and the occasional opportunistic gropings. I tried my very best to behave but my shirt was just oozing with fagness. It was just a plain white shirt too...

There was one unexpected discovery made that night. The little toddler looks like someone we know. A discovery so massive that it threatens to tear the very fabric of space itself. It was a shocker. I shall not speak of it more for it is rather frightening. Its one of those strange but true moments.

Anyhow, leaving that anomaly aside, I heart the Wii! We all played this fun-tastic party game with all the weird hand movements and jiggle here and there. Then, I was playing Trauma Center where I was trained to be a surgeon and save patient's lives. Fun fun fun and Sam has a scrub (I wonder where he stole that from...) to go with it too.

I want a Wii~~~

As if it was by default (OMG I'm turning into a geek), Janvier the alcoholic, suggested we go to Frangi's. What a way to welcome Hari Raya eh? Who can refuse that suggestion when coupled with FREE COVER CHARGE courtesy of Adrien. Woot woot. So we tszuj-ed up and head to Frangi's.

So many beautiful boys around. So many queers in one small place. Being a Frangi Virgin that I was, I was literally gugu gaga over everything. Not to mention a cute friend of Janvier's.

I heart that place a lot despite the bad ventilation and a permanent haze of cigarette smoke. The drinks there are fucking overpriced! I had Sex On The Beach and it was RM31.31... I'd rather go to Lunar Bar for drinks... Oh and also weird angmo encounter... That freaked my out but thank goodness my ex's ex saved me from that life threatening encounter.

Now I shall get ready for another open house. Destination Adrien's house.

-Live Long & Prosper

Hoooooooo~~~

In the screaming words of La Faghag, "WTF did you let me watch!". That was the reaction of La Faghag when I gave her some clips to watch. It is disturbing yet hilarious. Gotta hand it to the Japs to do such thing on television.

Imagine a muscular man in leather outfit (sleeveless top and super short hot pants), golden frames sunglasses and a leather cap. Basically a DADDY. He goes around and well... Just watch it for yourself.

Here's the one with kids and good intentions of giving them a balanced diet. The approach was effective yet questionably disturbing and hilarious.


Needless to say, those kids are scared for life by his hips humping manoeuver. Poor kids...

Here's another one for Father's Day.


Yikes... This goes beyond words...

Here's a final one. Hard Gay and Ramen shop.


OMG the kids... Save the kids. Heheheheh.

You can watch these in YouTube. Try watching them all. Its hilariously distrubing. Hahahah.

-Live Long & Prosper

Perplexing Ass

C was over at my place in Central Queer or known as my room. Just random popping by as usual. Didn't do anything in particular, just chilling. Until he opened his blog to show me his post with a YouTube clip. I watched it, I got curious then I got confused...
I didn't know what I was confused about. I wouldn't be confused if I knew what I was confused about right? I love the song a lot. Its a great song and so catchy. Its a cross between Kylie Minogue and George Michael, both such a gay combo. Even Sam said its so me.

But I was still confused everytime I watch the video clip. A little something bugging the back of my head. It shook my fabulous queer foundation of being queer. I thought I was turning straight! Imagine that...

Today, I got back from work and I kept repeating the video clip. They call this addiction. Then it hit me. The video clip is hot, the song is brilliant and the asses. The asses~~~ Dem perfect bubble asses! I shall demonstrate how this confuses me.

Girls... (not interested)

Oooo perfect asses! (ogle)

Boobs... (not interested)

Asses! (ogle)

Girls... (not interested)

Asses! (ogle)

See my dilemma? Nice asses, I like then boobs, I don't like and both attached to one body... My penis was thinking, "To inflate or not to inflate?". Its so confusing like looking at a centaur for the very first time and trying to figure out what the heck is that.

I wonder if C intentionally put that YouTube to turn me straight.

Hmmm?

-Live Long & Prosper

ISETAN Is Evil

ISETAN is evil... My mom and I went back there again yesterday... Mom wanted to get a new fragrance too and of course I couldn't resist going to see The Promoter again. Except today I saw him in glasses. He looked so adorable with glasses. Though by now, I'm used to his DIVA-ness and it was fun sniffing for perfume he suggested for mom. In the end, mom got HUGO Women. Lovely fragrance. Very fresh and sweet that's not overpowering to the nose. Its definitely not a head turner. I don't like head turners...

The Promoter was really nice cause he gave us two body lotion (for mom), one shower gel (for me) and a miniature HUGO Women (for mom). Ain't he sweet.

More HUGO products.

With that purchase, we got RM10 voucher from ISETAN. They are giving out RM10 voucher with every RM100 purchase of fragrances and cosmetic products. I wanted to get a cap and I saw one from Padini. So I got that and two pairs of Renoma socks. Was so tempted to buy more GStrings... I guess I should stop over stocking underwear like there's a nuclear winter coming yes?

Padini cap.

I couldn't really concentrate on shopping. There was just too many good looking twinkie boys around. Honestly... Never have I seen so many of them all pack jammed in ISETAN. I love ISETAN sale now. My eyes were scanning relentlessly and everywhere I look, I could feel my mouth drooling...

Boys...

Twinks...

Manly twinks...

Rice twinks...

Gorgeous twinks...

All sorts of twinks...

Had O'Briens for tea. I ordered a turkey slice & Cheddar Toostie. Its really yummy. So happy that O'Briens finally opened in KLCC though I can't afford to eat it as often as I like. Heheheh.

O'Briens Outlet in KLCC.

Nice packaging I say.<

That was shopping day number two. No more shopping for me.

-Live Long & Prosper

Brat

Ok its official, I'm a spoiled brat... ISETAN is on SALE from yesterday till tomorrow and of course, Friday lunch I dragged my mom there to go shopping. I had one thing in mind, try out Calvin Klien's new CKIn2U. I had a whiff but couldn't decide so we went to the men's floor and have a look around but nothing attracted my attention except a belt from Padini. Its pink with dark pink stripes. See Pluboy, I still love my pinks.

My pink belt.

Jonathan Rhys Myers!!!

Went back down to the fragrance floor again to scout for fragrances. I headed to HUGO Boss to try out the new HUGO Boss Limited Edition. It was quite nice but at the same time I didn't really like it. Its not me, so to speak. The Promoter suggested HUGO Energise instead. I smelled it and I was in love with it. The best thing is the promotion that they were having. Buy a big bottle (which I did) and get a HUGO traveling bag for free. I love the bag!

I love HUGO!

Now I will gossip about the Promoter. OMG! The Promoter was like so D.I.V.A. He's got all the hand gestures, body language and the manner of which he speaks. At first, I thought he was like a mirror image of me but after awhile he D.I.V.A-ness even rivals mine... I was in awe though something about him that I was feeling curious about. La faghag and Leggie was giving me tips on how to get the guy's number.

Hi may I know what's the name of this fragrant and please write your number at the back of the tester strip please?

-Leggie

Shameless people. Shameless.

Though I was so tempted to do so myself if it wasn't for my mom. Don't want to give her stroke la...

The sale in ISETAN is awesome. Shop till you drop guys.

-Live Long & Prosper

Conversation

Had a very interesting conversation with a long lost friend of mine from high school today. Sigh. The things I have to face even online after a busy and tiring day at work.

Friend says:
any girl friend

Defiant85 says:
Uh I'm gay...

Friend says:
wat

Defiant85 says:
Uh yea...

Friend says:
wtf

Defiant85 says:
I'm guessing you didn't go to my blog then

Friend says:
wat

Friend says:
sleeping around with guyz

Defiant85 says:
Uh I wouldn't put it that way but yes I like guys

Friend says:
dude

Friend says:
wen did u turn gay

Friend says:
pls

Friend says:
snap out of it

Defiant85 says:
Right...

Friend says:
ya

Friend says:
like its gonna work

Defiant85 says:
It does

Friend says:
and how does it work

Defiant85 says:
Like any other straight relationships

Friend says:
ok

Defiant85 says:
No diff really

Friend says:
watever

Friend says:
go ahead

Defiant85 says:
Thank you

Friend says:
at abt calvin

Friend says:
IS HE GAY TOOOOOOO

Defiant85 says:
Uh no

Friend says:
ok

Friend says:
thank god

Defiant85 says:
Please...

Friend says:
ok ok

Friend says:
lets leave it to there

Friend says:
so

Defiant85 says:
Hmm

Defiant85 says:
Fine by me

Friend says:
so

Friend says:
wat else

Friend says:
brb

Defiant85 says:
Hmmm nothing really

Defiant85 says:
Busy with work and stuff

Friend says:
ok

Then we stopped chatting. Funny really.

Whatever happened to the good old days we had in high school? Toss it out the window cause he's gay.

We were such good buddies. Buddy with a gay dude?! Never. I can't be seen with a gay dude or be known to have a gay friend.

Oh well. Fine by me really. I'm not at loss or anything but thanks for reaffirming that human are hypocrites and generally mean and stupid. But that's ok.

I like it when he said, "sleeping around with guyz". Like straight guys don't put their penis in any pussy they can find and take it up the ass once in a while but that's ok cause we're straight couple. (insert hypocrisy here)

"wen did you turn gay" (insert ignorance, possibly stupidity)

"snap out of it" (insert more ignorance)

"thank god" (insert... well I don't know what to insert)

Well its fine. I don't expect every horny-straight-homophobes-gayhater-hypocrites-andthelistgoeson to accept me for who I am.

Its alright really. I was not mad or anything writing this post or when I was chatting with him. Getting mad over this little thing is stupid. Ending a friendship just because I'm gay, well that's just plain dumb ass.

-Live Long & Prosper

The Boys Are Out

It is the time of the year again. No, not people rushing to settle their income tax, it is the CLEO Bachelor. I had to bugged la faghag II for the website link. I googled it but nothing popped up. How can Google not give me crucial result such as this is beyond me. Anyhow, the overall selections were rather disappointing. They're just so bla... So passé.

But that's ok cause I found my several gems among hidden among them. I'm just gonna list the Top Three that I really like and its such a pity only three out of 50 bachelors. It was no contest really. Ok maybe the first one is a little bias but heck, its my pick after all.

The first one that I spotted was the Project Engineer in my company. Oh he's so cute... He truly is cute. Kawai~~~ Yes I was giggling so much on the phone with la faghag when I was talking to her on the phone. Giggle, giggle, giggle. Oh I'm even giggling right now as I write the post. Bachelor number 31 is him. I know several people really don't like him for his attitude but I can't help it. I'm blinded by him. He's super cute in my eyes.

Look he's so cute~~~ Ok I'm officially a stalker...

Next guy who really caught my attention is Bachelor number 36. Just look at his smile and that prominent eye brows. Just like a cute puppy that makes you wanna cuddle him. He looks so good in his read hoodie. Oh so cute. Just so cute. Like the male version of Little Red Riding Hood. I would love to be the wolf pretending to be his sick grandmother. Come to papa. :P

Another Cutie Pie and so adorable in that red hoodie.

Luck Bachelor number 17 is my next pick. I usually am attracted to guys with Oriental attributes like the pretty boy and fair skin, basically Eastern twinks. But this next one has a nice mixture of both East and West. He's like the British version of Wang Lee Hom. He's a McDreamy for me and I absolutely love his outfit. Shirt, hoodie and blazer on him makes me all wobbly on my knees. I wonder how he sounds like when he speaks.

McDreamy. Look into his eyes and be dazzled.

Those are my pick for this years Bachelors. Not many gems but they're perfect gems. Ahhh... Good looking men. Love men. Love them a lot. Kawai men~~~ Hmmm someone should make a yaoi out of these three kawai men.

Check em out the CLEO Bachelors yourself.

-Live Long & Prosper

J. P. Calderon

I was watching The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency Season Two for like the whole day today. I know this show was airing earlier this year but I only got around to it now. I love the show so much but pity it stopped at the ninth episode... I want more... More beautifully sculpted men to look at.

Well enough of ogling at adonis and drooling all over myself. J.P. Calderon was in Survivor and now in JDMA. I truly admire him (mostly his physique) and have tremendous respect for this man. There was one particular episode that hit home to me.

The Editor In Chief of Instinct Magazine, a magazine for gay people, wanted to feature JP on the cover page of their February Swimsuit edition. He specifically requested for JP but there was one catch. The model featured on the cover are only for gays who are out of the closet. Janice didn't know about him being gay or not but she had to approach JP about this huge offer.

Janice Dickinson: I have a client that wants to book you for Instinct Magazine but there's a catch, they have to use gay man on the cover. Would you be interested in doing this if you were a gay man or if you're not a gay man its really non of my business and I feel really awkward asking.

I can see JP was really uncomfortable at this point. He wasn't talking right. He kept mumbling, shivering and flipping the magazine randomly. Even Janice was stumped trying to comfort and guide JP.

JP Calderon: I'll do it but I guess I just don't want to give up like a sense of my masculinity.
JD: There's nothing wrong with your masculinity, JP.
JP: I don't want to be stereotyped negatively. I like being a man. I like to be...
JD: There's nothing wrong with that. Being a man is not being an athlete or big muscles. Its about being honest, it being a man having true convictions to yourself.

Some of the things he said in the show:

JP: You're scared of losing the people that are so close to you, being your best friends, your close friends and most importantly your family. And I just, I don't want to be considered a disappointment.

JP: I hate hating myself. That I truly hate myself. I truly don't like who I am and maybe this is my way of letting go and finding out who's going to accept me and finding out who's not.

JP: I'm just tired of living this facade of something that I am not and I just want to start living of something that I am.

I just thought I'd share with you guys out there. I am so proud of him and what an inspiration he is (again, his physique). Oh and this is the cover for the magazine. He's so cute and hot.

-Live Long & Prosper

More Cats Out Of The Bag

I came out to a bunch of strangers today. :P Almost every other Friday, I attend follow-up seminars to the Forum I attended in Singapore. Similar things goes on except its more detailed and a smaller group. Its so much more powerful than the Forum in Singapore and it really is something.

So there's always a sharing session before they move on to a new topic and I choose to share mine. But before that, I said I'm gonna do something unreasonable since that was one of the thing discussed last session. So I just came out there and then. It was easy to just say it compared to when I want to say it to my mom. I feel free and nothing bound me from being myself as a queer. Being queer is probably the best thing that ever happened in my life.

In return, I met another gay guy in my seminar and he just joined. I was eying him since he arrived. He's really cute and knowing me, Chinese dude with black shirt is enough to make me drool. I had to refocus myself to the seminar every time I catch myself drifting away. But then he said he is in a relationship of four years with his lover. Awwww. Deng. He's really nice and friendly but didn't get much opportunity to talk to him.

Oh and apparently, the gay dude that I knew from last session is a writer for Fridae. Mandarin articles. That's so awesome. Its always good to meet new queers. Shows that we are as diverse and successful as straight guys are.

I'm still waiting for my Prince Charming. Come out, come out wherever you are. I'm ready to move on but meanwhile, PROMISCUOUS sex is always welcome. Heheheh.

-Live Long & Prosper

Meow Meow Meow

So like I said, the cat is out of the bag. I'm not sure how long the chat about this is bad, the earth is going to end, you'll get AIDS and bla bla bla. Then, I went to my room with the pretense of getting water. Then through an ancient advance technology, GTalk, I PMed my bro in law in Aussie. The message was, "Call home. Mom knows.".

So went back out, sat down and listen, listen and listen some more. Then, ring ring the telephone rang.

Yes~~~ Divine intervention~~~
*Vienna Boys Choir sang in the back of my head

And I let them talk it out. My sis and bro in law knows about me and support me. Thanks sis and Walter~~~ Talk, talk, talk and talk. While me in my room talking to Walter about stuff.

The thing was, I didn't say it out really. It was more like I kept saying, I'm... I'm... And then she completed the sentence for me. I just nodded. She knew about it. Well, knowing me, who wouldn't know I'm gay? Even a blind, deft and dumb man a mile away would know I'm gay. :P The best part, my mom asked, "Is McDave gay?" I was like, ask him yourself lo and I shrugged. But she said, I know he is. He's a little girly. :P Wakakakak.

Oh well. So that was that. I'll just give my mom sometime to sink it all in. At least now we can talk better. Its all good for now.

-Live Long & Prosper

The Cat Is Really Out

I just came out to mom.

Not an ideal situation but its alright I'm guess.

The Bible lecture and stuff like that.

Oh well.

-Live Long & Prosper

Invasion Of The Weird Kind

I dreamed that I had a surgery to remove a small growth on the cheeks of my bum. It was a minor procedure so it wasn't as scary as any other surgery that I've been to in my lifetime. It only took about an hour.

I was able to walk after the surgery and another doctor called me to an examination room before I was discharged from the hospital. I was still in those gowns that they give patients to wear. The one where everyone can see your butt crack at the back.

The doctor asked me to enter the examination room, remove the gown and said he'll be right in. As I walked in, I noticed there was another patient, naked and was sitting on an examination bed. I'm guessing he was also waiting for that doctor. I removed my gown and stood next to the bed. Though, I don't remember who this person is or how he looked like.

The doctor entered and walked towards me. He asked me to turn around and bend over to me to examine my butt. Then he asked me to turn around and he examined/grope my testicles...

Just as things were going steamy, my freaking phone had to ring~~~ *grrrr I want to know what's next... Deng it.

I think it must be because I chatted with Doc Paul last night before sleeping. In fact, I think the doctor is Doc Paul in my dream... What does this mean? Is Doc Paul some sort of a psychic alien? Invading my dream is one of his kinky hobby? My brain's manifestation of a threesome?

-Live Long & Prosper

Bugger

What is queer really? The traditional meaning of queer is strange or unusual but these days, it is also used to describe gays. Funny how they associate queer with gay but that is how it is isn't it? People thing we are some sort of estrange being and naturally, human have a tendency of fearing strange things instead trying to understand it.

But that's not what I'm going to blog about today. I've already written about it in the past and there it shall remain. What I want to blog about is discrimination. Discrimination that occurs within the queer community itself. Even worst, discrimination also occurs within queer friends. That is a sad thing really. So much for depending on each other for support regardless of circumstances.

People judge. Everyone judge. I judge. We love to judge and compartmentalize people into categories that we see fit. It makes us feel empowered and good about ourselves. But at the expense of what? What is the price do we pay for doing that? If its the case of strangers, the price we pay is, we won't get to know the person for who they are really and not the assumptions that we make. That's relatively small price to pay compared to when people judge those who are considered friends. What would the price be for that?

Its really frustrating really cause you'd expect people would know better. Queers around the world are complaining about straights discriminating queers and yet, discrimination occurs within the queer community. Such an irony.

I'm tired these days, really tired. I'm tired of so many things that I can't seem to even begin to list it down. However there is one that stands out. I'm tired of being reminded of my own imperfections by others. I have me to remind myself of the imperfections I have and I don't need others to do so. I do a pretty darn good job of it myself, thank you very much. I don't understand what my imperfections have to do with them anyways. Its not like its life threatening to them that my imperfection exists in me. I'm imperfect in so many ways. SO WHAT?!

I thought I belong in a lasting relationship with McDave but that ended. I thought I belong with friends who sees beyond my imperfection but that did not happen. So where do I belong? Once again, I am cast into the sea of life without a clue where I am.

*Aretha Franklin - R.E.S.P.E.C.T. playing in the background

-Live Long & Prosper

Pink-A-Holic

OMG~~~

I'm so addicted to all that's pink all of a sudden. Pink this, pink that, pink EVERYTHING I tell you.

As you may or may not notice, I got meself a new avatar and big surprise, its a pink lion. Hehehhe. What I tell yea? I was out with la faghag and fag, JL in Parkson KLCC after work. La faghag was looking for a name card holder and we stumbled into the stuffed toys section. Yes I went nuts. Hehehe. Then we spotted the PINK LION. Its so cute and its so me~~~

So took several poses of the PINK LION like so.

This is PINK LION.

This is PINK LION doing the bunny.

Despite popular belief of me being the skanky one, the PINK LION doing the bunny isn't my handiwork. Shockingly, it was la faghag. I know shocking but heheh I think it funny. I don't thing a certain someone would like the thought of PINK LION doing the bunny. :P

-Live Long & Prosper

Yaoi, Boys, Action!

I'm currently watching Fafner In The Azure in the hope of seeing some yaoi actions. I know sounds lame and shallow. I can't help it I guess. Just like how I can't hold myself to stop drooling when I see a good looking guy or a twink walked past me in working attire.

So far its been five episodes but no yaoi action as of yet and I doubt there'll be any yaoi action. :P The story development is great so far and the animation is very similar to Gundam series. I'm begining to feel something is developing wit hthe two boy characters in the anime. Hmmm...

While in my Torrent download list, Neon Genesis Evangelion is being completed. Its already 90+% and I can't wait to watch that too. I'm wonder if there's any yaoi elements in this one. Hmmm...

Then there's always yaoi manga. I've been downloading it thanks to Louise for introducing it to me. Love Mode is the sweetest and fuzzy wazzy love story. There's minor sex illustration too. Heheheh. I should find more yaoi stuff.

-Live Long & Prosper

Queer Probability

No I'm no math wiz or math genius or anything. I'm no where close to that really. But I remember talking about the probability of only having two fags in a company of 800+ employee. Something was telling me it doesn't add up. I tried fag hunting but couldn't find any that pinged my sonar. Alas I gave up.

Until yesterday, my sonar pinged and boy did it ping like having Queens singing, "I see a little silhouette of a man scaramouche scaramouche will you do the fandango..." right next to me. Heheh I love this piece by Queens.

Anyways, I had to go to the IT Department cause something was really fucked up with the system. So I went downstairs to see if anyone can reset the server and get the system running again. It took awhile so I sat down looking at this guy's monitor from some distance. Then I saw his Google search. I couldn't see what he googled but I saw the first result and I trust Google's results like how I trust my blood test results for STDs. Its pretty darn accurate. It shocked me. It said, "Sunday Gay Walk" or something along that line.

Obviously the first person I bitched about this was FLS, la faghag. She didn't really believe that he could be gay but we agreed on borderline fag for this guy. Heheh. With him on board, it'll be three fags in an 800++ employee company. Hmmm.

-Live Long & Prosper

Gay Long Term Relationship

This is an excerpt of an interview with Graham Streeter about monogamous LTR and of course his movie Cages but I'm more intrigued with the art of monogamous LTR as Fridae puts it.

æ: But that might also be tied to the Western espousal for individualism. Asian cultures tend to be more collectivistic – though I don’t know how much of an impact that has on their gay cultures. Anyway, you’ve been with your partner monogamously for 18 years. That’s amazing. What’s the secret to long-term gay monogamy?

Graham: Well, we’re both openly gay, so all our friends and family know about us. When you tell everyone you’re a couple (instead of being secretive of it), there’s a bigger incentive to make the relationship work.

The other secret is making friends with other gay couples in long-term relationships. We tend to have a good effect on one another. Of course, we have other friends too – single, gay, straight, married, etc – but it’s important to have gay friends who are also in LTRs.

I’ve been with my partner Alex for 18 years. I know him so well that, at any time, I can say something that will make him furious in 10 seconds flat, so furious that he’ll want to break up with me. He can do the same to me. But I don’t do it because I don’t want to. We both look at things in the long-term: We’re not getting any younger, thinner or prettier. So we don’t want to ruin what we have and start all over again.

The problem is, as you get older, you start to ask yourself these questions a lot: “Am I still attractive to men? Would other men want to be with me?” We start to look to other men to validate our attractiveness. And that’s when the problem begins. Of course, there’s always the novelty of seeing someone else and enjoying a new body! But at the end of the day, you have to remember your values and the commitment and respect that you have for your partner. You don’t just want to fuck that up.

I personally think what he says is true and its a huge effort to make a relationship work but in the end, its worth the while to have someone loving and caring to depend on.

I love you McDave and know that I'm always by your side no matter what.

-Live Long & Prosper