Antemeridian Occurrences

My mornings are getting more and more interesting with each passing day. This morning I was thinking of Mc Dave again. I actually got up at 7.15 am this morning (Unwillingly of course but it was instinctive.) despite sleeping at 4.00 am and smsed him good luck for his test. Then, I went back to sleep. I got up at around 11.00 am feeling rather lazy so I let my mind wander. Needless to say, it wandered to Mc Dave.

I am sure by now, everyone knows I got a thing for Mc Dave. (I have no idea why. Never met the guy before but I really like him.) I wonder if the feeling is mutual. We sms each other daily (For a month and a half now.) and all but there is only so much I can tell from sms. There are no emotions in a sms and no facial expressions. That is why I am really looking forward to this holiday. I will be able to meet him for the first time. There is still so much I do not know about him. I need to see him and speak to him to be able to know his character. I hate not being in "The Know". His birthday is coming, wonder what to get him...


Since my mid semester break, (The same time Mc Dave and I have been contacting each other.) there is this guy, Bard, gave me his number in Axcest. Curiousity got the best of me and I contacted him. This guy was basically saying how much he wanted me and loved me. (It was 10 minutes into the conversation too. What a freak.) I was like, I don't even know you and you don't know me. So how the hell do you love me?! Till this day, he sends sms to me, every now and then. Such annoyance. I just ignore it. (But still. The space his sms took could is reserved for Mc Dave's.) I got one sms from him today, asking me to met him when I am in KL. I replied, "Sorry. I'm seeing someone." This better get into his numb-skull and leave me alone.

I had a very interesting chatting session with SP (My ex-boyfriend.) this morning as well. It seems that he is still wounded from the breakup. The breakup has been for a month now. Guess I better give him his space until he is completely recovered. I feel sorry for being such a lousy boyfriend to him when we were together. (Though he said I was great. I did all I could for him but I guess there were somethings lacking in me which I am improving now.) As you can tell, I am rather inexperience when it comes to relationships but I am learning. I learnt something really valuable and I think if I knew this sooner, SP and I would still be together.

"To love is to empty oneself and enter into the other's world, making all his aspirations, needs and concerns your own, forgetting yourself entirely."
~RA~

-Live Long & Prosper

11 comments:

Alex said...

"An idle mind is the devil's workshop". One can easily wandered into so many "places"...
I guess you really have to see this person in person to answer all your questions....
Good luck dude!

savante said...

Perhaps it's time you took the first step and go out to meet Mc Dave.

Paul

defiant85 said...

Alex - Heheh. Thanks. Idle mind is also very theraputic.

Paul - I have already made arrangement with him. Heheheh. I can't wait~~~

Prince of Darkness said...

Eh, sometimes love's just very weird, like this person, who I really liked alot, never seen him before but when I started chatting with him online a year ago, it's kinda have the feeling, he's the one, but then tat time never really chatted with him, but then few months ago, just out of no where, can msg him, and then give him a cal, and now we're at this stage sort of, together. But seeing him this coming holiday is a big thing for me, lots of thing I wanna say to him, and lots of thing I wanna do with him...maybe that's love? I have no idea to what that is either. But then, what I know is, follow your heard Defiant, if you feel happy being with him, go for it. Dun make it a regretable thing. Good luck dude...

ceusm said...

uhmnn n of course remember to write wats happening on tat day when u meet ur Mcdave hehee.. I can't wait to know ahaha..

Uhmnn good luck yah.. uhmn how good to be in love urgh...

joshua said...

i have heard from somewhere that 'you meet the wrong guys so that you will know it when the right one comes along'. perhaps SP was a stepping stone towards Mr. Right, erm probably McDave?

most importantly, no regrets right? they are just baneful weights to carry around.

Cybertron said...

sometimes giving ur fren a hug will do. wud it? try n c lar. ;) its just an action without d words n works like a miracle 1. btw wish u all d best on ur 1st date. :)

defiant85 said...

Thanks everyone for the wishes and ideas. I do hope it will turn out well. (Pressure. :P)

Derek said...

Hey there. Was browsing your previous posts and found out that you have the strangest sexual awakening and realisation. And that people just come out to you?? Just like that?? Heh ...

We should meet up some time, but seeing how things are, quite impossible. Oh, and glad that you know Alex. He's the one I was referring to in our earlier correspondences.

Xavier said...

McDave!!!! that sounds like McDreamy in grey's anatomy!!!! darn handsome and "dreamifying"

show show show :p

we can 38 over it with a McValue meal.. at Ipoh.

defiant85 said...

Ah finally. Someone said about Grey's Anatomy. Heheh. Mc Dreamy is nice and all but I rather Mc Vet. Heheheh.