Farewell For Now

They say that time flies and it really does fly. With my last paper this Friday, I am very anxious to finish it and start my holiday. In a blink of an eye, I am finishing my two years of my four years degree programme. Another blink of an eye, I will finish my four years degree programme and will be looking for employment. So time flies whether I like it or not. Time waits for no one.

After my lunch this afternoon, I went to "The Rainbow Room" (Alex's and Xavier's room) but only Xavier was there and Alex was showering. Xavier was suprised to see me there. He said that they were about to leave for KL and most likely I won't be seeing them before I leave for the holiday. I was stunned and my mind just went blank. I totally forgotten about it. They did mentioned it to me yesterday but I lost track of the day. My heart sank and hit rock bottom. I felt sad right away. So I sat down on Alex's chair and watched as Xavier scurried around to do last minute packing.

Then Alex came into the room from shower. He too was suprised to see me there. It made me even sadder when he walked into the room because soon he will have to go too. He dried himself and hurriedly did last minute packing. I just sat on the chair and watched. I am going to miss this room, "The Rainbow Room". For the next two months, there won't be hanging out in "The Rainbow Room" or spontaneous visitations from them to my room or having meals together.

Then the time came for them to leave. Xavier left the room first because he had to sort things out in his car. I gave him a hug before he left the room. Time stopped momentarily and I could feel my heart pumping tardily. Soon after that, Alex had to go too. I gave him a hug too. It was almost unbearable for me to hold my tears back. It push my ability to maintain a facade of cheery face to its limit. We parted and said our goodbyes and I walked back to my room alone and melancholic. It was the longest walk to my room.

To Alex and Xavier,

For the past month, you guys gave me a sense of belonging that I have been searching for my entire life. Even though it was just a month, it felt like a lifetime to me. I had a great and fun time knowing you guys. This period of time used to be a miserable time for me with the exam stress and feeling of being alone but its different this time. You guys help eased some of my problems that arose and eased my stress level. I thank you both for that and many other things as well. Don't worry. I'll be fine. I always have.

With love,
Defiant85

I know this is a super emotional post but I can't help it these days. I get emotional really easy and I need an outlet. At least I have my blog to express them.

-Live Long & Prosper