Happy Mother's Day

Today, I found out a little more about Mc Dave. I found out how sweet and thoughtful son he is to his mother. Today as we all know in Malaysia is Mother's Day. He called his mom, like every other sons and daughters should do and he gave his mom a little suprise. He somehow got a dozen of flowers sent to his mom. How sweet is that! Mind you, his family is in Sabah and he is here in Peninsular. From what I gather, he and his mom are really closely knit. He calls his mom every week once and tell her of the week's events and happenings. But she does not know of his sexual orientation.

Me on the other hand, am not close to my mom or dad. We are very detached. I don't know what is going on at their end nor do they know what is going on at my end. Very twisted kind of relationship I'd say. What is the cause of this detachment? It started when I was starting out primary school. My dad got a job overseas and they did not want to bring me along. Therefore, they left me in the care of my aunt and uncle. Surfice to say, I was not thrill with decision. I did not have a say really. But it had to be done. I can think of soo many other options but they decided this was the best. (Right.)

I remember running to the gate screaming at them to come back the day they left me at my aunt's. I remember not sleeping or eating for few days, demanding that my parents take me with them. It was a traumatic experience and no kid on Earth should have gone through what I had gone through. The hate for them did not sparked then, it grew in me as the years went by. There was this incident in school when I was in Primary Four, I suddenly broke down and cried before assembly started. All my friends were puzzled as to why the sudden outburst. I was missing my parents terribly. I just cleaned up and proceeded with the assembly. With my parents overseas, they were not involved with my schooling life. This went on till today. Many achievements I made, were celebrated by me and me only.

Another incident where I screamed at my mom, at the verge of actually hit her, was when I received my PMR results. I almost had straight A's. I was so excited and happy about it. (I did not get an A for stupid Bahasa Malaysia.) We were having dinner when my mom was saying something about my results but the word "fail" came out of her mouth. I did not know what she was talking about but I remember screaming, "I did not FAIL. I almost got all A's bla bla bla...". I threw my dinner plate away and kept on screaming. I ran into my room and just cried there. One good thing that came out of it was that they do not pressure me when it comes to education anymore. But my hatred towards them grew.

I could only wish to have the son and parents relationship that Mc Dave has with his parents. It is too late for me to forgive my parents for what they have done. These days, I just do not bother about it. All I will do now is that, I will do my end of the bargain as a child. I will finish up my education and will not depend on them in the future. So to everyone who is reading, treasure your family for there are worst things that could happen in your family and mine is one of the example of how bad things can get.

Lastly, Happy Mother's Day mother.

-Live Long & Prosper